Wednesday, February 16, 2011
{ 4:45 AM }
Please get the fact clear. Me and her = Different-.-
Seriously, even if I bothered to risk the pain in my heart to ask,
the outcome will be the same. Then I know I'll be tempted to ask more.
And you will be so pissed to me, as usual,
and you will use all your sarcastic words to hurt me.
What's the point then?
You went out with him. That's it. It's enough to kill me.
you know it, and you know it well.
I can't believe I spent so much time on this blog post.
when its so short-.-
You enjoy assuming stuffs as well,
but I don't see you bother to explain like how I do.
forget it i think we shall have a talk.
its easier i guess? im too tired to think anymore.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
{ 5:42 AM }
somehow i just thinks about the past.
how we used to hangout, the places we went.
and all the songs i love it alot when you sing.
all the memories you gave me.
its all craved so deep in my heart.
i tried not to think but it just flashed across my mind.
few days back, i took out all those stuffs that you gave me.
i was so down. serious. i cried. but no one cared.
i listen to those songs, i cried too. but no one cared too.
on 10 feb, you said its none of my business anyway.
for what i have to care. you know how much it hurts me.
you dont know, and you will never know!
because im irritating to you,
you regretted knowing me,
i dont worth all these
thats all you know. i acted im strong,
but in the end i cried.
you wouldn't know just by a little action,
or words how deep it can hurt me.
thats the reason why i cant take it when you two hang out.
see both of you like that really hurt me alot.
for this one month, not even a single day i cant dont think about you.
its so painful, till i really can feel my heart ache.
everytime i meet you, i dont wanna leave you.
but i know its impossible.
thats why i dont look back and say bye,
beacuse i know i will tear,
i dont wish to tear infront of you.
and that was all the moments i needed you,
and where were you?
when you needed me i was by your side.
but, when i needed you?
you are happily going out with them.
when you pleaded for chance, i gave.
when i pleaded for chance?
you gave, but....
'if i wanna break again, dont plead, its irritating'
i admit i say this before, but whenever you plead.
didn't i gave you chances?
i tried to salvage, but you rejected.
yes! im over-sensitive.
because im scared to loose you.
you were over-sensitive in the past too.
but you took almost half a year to stable.
and how long you gave me?
a month! hais. im so down, now, right now!
these are the times i need you.
AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!
i dont know why...
'but now, you've changed,
no longer the one i once love, i once knew.
its 2 different person.' i dont know why.
did i? even if i did, i acted,
to cover my weakness.
what about you?
its the real you now?
ps; i still love you alot.
imissyou alot.
no matter how you scold me
or hurt me.
you're my everything.
