Saturday, February 12, 2011
{ 5:42 AM }
somehow i just thinks about the past.
how we used to hangout, the places we went.
and all the songs i love it alot when you sing.
all the memories you gave me.
its all craved so deep in my heart.
i tried not to think but it just flashed across my mind.
few days back, i took out all those stuffs that you gave me.
i was so down. serious. i cried. but no one cared.
i listen to those songs, i cried too. but no one cared too.
on 10 feb, you said its none of my business anyway.
for what i have to care. you know how much it hurts me.
you dont know, and you will never know!
because im irritating to you,
you regretted knowing me,
i dont worth all these
thats all you know. i acted im strong,
but in the end i cried.
you wouldn't know just by a little action,
or words how deep it can hurt me.
thats the reason why i cant take it when you two hang out.
see both of you like that really hurt me alot.
for this one month, not even a single day i cant dont think about you.
its so painful, till i really can feel my heart ache.
everytime i meet you, i dont wanna leave you.
but i know its impossible.
thats why i dont look back and say bye,
beacuse i know i will tear,
i dont wish to tear infront of you.
and that was all the moments i needed you,
and where were you?
when you needed me i was by your side.
but, when i needed you?
you are happily going out with them.
when you pleaded for chance, i gave.
when i pleaded for chance?
you gave, but....
'if i wanna break again, dont plead, its irritating'
i admit i say this before, but whenever you plead.
didn't i gave you chances?
i tried to salvage, but you rejected.
yes! im over-sensitive.
because im scared to loose you.
you were over-sensitive in the past too.
but you took almost half a year to stable.
and how long you gave me?
a month! hais. im so down, now, right now!
these are the times i need you.
AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!
i dont know why...
'but now, you've changed,
no longer the one i once love, i once knew.
its 2 different person.' i dont know why.
did i? even if i did, i acted,
to cover my weakness.
what about you?
its the real you now?
ps; i still love you alot.
imissyou alot.
no matter how you scold me
or hurt me.
you're my everything.
